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Jay Chou - 我落淚。情緒零碎

歌詞

作詞：方文山   作曲：周杰倫
地上 斷了翅的蝶
霧散之後的 滿月
原來愛 跟心碎
都可以很 細節

聽夜風繞過 幾條街
秋天 瘦了滿地 的落葉
於是又一整夜
感性的句子 都枯萎 凋謝

我不想再寫 隨手撕下這一頁
原來詩 跟離別
可以沒有結尾（沒有結尾）

憔悴後悔等等 這些
於是我 把詩摺疊
郵寄出感覺 夾一束白玫瑰
妳將愛退回

我不落淚 忍住感覺
分手在起風 這個季節
哭久了會累 也只是別人的以為
冷的咖啡 我清醒著 一再續杯

我落淚 情緒零碎
妳的世界 一幕幕紛飛
門外的薔薇 帶刺傷人的很直接
過去被翻閱 結局滿天的 風雪

我不想再寫 隨手撕下這一頁（這一頁）
原來詩 跟離別
可以沒有結尾

憔悴後悔等等 這些
於是我 把詩摺疊
郵寄出感覺 夾一束白玫瑰
妳將愛退回

我不落淚 忍住感覺
分手在起風 這個季節
哭久了會累 也只是別人的以為
冷的咖啡 我清醒著 一再續杯

我落淚 情緒零碎
妳的世界 一幕幕紛飛
門外的薔薇 帶刺傷人的很直接
過去被翻閱 結局滿天的 風雪

誰人背後無人説

 This is so so true .

 My friend told me today that another girl (Let's call her LuLu) who i didn't know she was, started all the gossip about me and created that fucking " atmosphere" in the class. It all started in term one AND obviously I have not I that what the fuck was happening.

Excuse my language 

Clearly I was really up sad at that period of time when 80% of my classmates treated me like crap and the group of friends that i used to hang out with ditched me. 

It pretty much started with a water bottle ....yes a fucking water bottle . I really don't understand why people can be so naive and shallow. They can pick you on anything even if it doesn't have any thing to do with them.

 And she spread the gossip like spreading virus. ( OKAY FUCK YOU!)

Seriously? You really don't have anything better to do other than fussing over nonsense and talking about other people's business? Why so pathetic? I am so sorry for you, really .

I did spend a lot of time thinking what wrong I had done that made me so " hate-able" but actually there's really nth. Nothing that really really seemed to be a matter from a normal non bias logical thinking. Actually you don't have to do anything for people to hate you because they will find a reason for themselves so that they can talk about it at your back and not necessarily feeling guilty.

At that time at lunch I eat alone at a long table and no one will sit there with me. My "friends"
tried to avoid me and made me feel so embarrassed every time I tried to join them.

So I quit and eat alone. No big deal. I can handle it.

I did see people's real faces and who is or not my friend anymore. I don't feel sad losing those " friends" cause friends are not like that and I don't have friends like that. I don't do small groups if you do just live in yours and I wish you a happily ever after!

LuLu, yes that bitch even said " If i was her ( me) I rather quit school than staying " And you know what? LuLu dropped out before term 2 ends ( now is term 3) , she had to , as her GPA can't be lower. How pathetic?

Why would I ever wanted to quit school just because all you girls treat me like shit?

NO WAY ! Not in a million years ! Who do you think you are ?

GOD this is sooooo hilarious , LMAO!!

 I have so many things better to do than to give a shit on what you guys say about me. I feel so glad that she is kicked out not because I am a bad person but because she is not the kind of person that is decent enough to be a nurse and not to mention her " can't be lower " GPA.

Avril Lavigne - I Don't Give

  

Let's end it with this song, enjoy!

OMG Imagine Dragons- Night Visions (Full Album)

YouTube you are theeee best!

01- Radioactive
02- Tiptoe (3:07)
03- It's Time (6:21)
04- Demons (10:21)
05- On Top Of The World (13:19)
06- Amsterdam (16:31)
07- Hear Me (20:32)
08- Every Night (24:28)
09- Bleeding Out (28:05)
10- Underdog (31:49)
11- Nothing Left To Say (35:18)/Rocks (42:06)

Im Obsesssssssssssss !!!

Chord Overstreet - Beautiful Girl

Can you hear me, barely breathing?
As you pass me by you’re an angel
With that body, got me crazy
Without even trying
I’m a mess, I'm a wreck
No one makes me feel like this

Chorus:
Beautiful girl, can you see me falling?
All I want is you
Make this a beautiful world,
Now my heart is calling, so caught up in you
I wish I could carry you away
And I don’t even know your name!
Do you even know, you're a beautiful girl?

Conversations I imagine,
For they’re in my head and I wake up
And I’m dreaming, I am here now, baby in my bed
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck
If I ask, would you say yes?

Chorus:
Beautiful girl, can you see me falling?
All I want is you
Make this a beautiful world,
Now my heart is calling, so caught up in you
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
I wish I could carry you away
And I don’t even know your name!
Do you even know, you're a beautiful girl?
I'll never let go
Do you even know, you’re a beautiful girl?

Yeah, can you see me falling?
Baby I’m falling!

Can you hear me, *barely* breathing
as you pass me by

Chorus:
Beautiful girl, can you see me falling?
All I want is you
Make this a beautiful world,
Now my heart is calling, so caught up in you
I wish I could carry you away
And I don’t even know your name!
I'll never let go
Do you even know, you're a beautiful girl?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, you know
Do you even know you’re a beautiful girl?

looping

 

The Script - Six Degrees Of Separation

Demons - Imagine Dragons

Im back

           Woo yeah I'm back. At least I try ha ha cause I really don't when I would have time to write my next entry.

I really miss blogging!!!!
          
            Actually I don't even remember when i stopped blogging. I remember i stopped cause i thought no one really cared or read my blog not even my best friend at that time so I was kind of discouraged. Then I decided to keep the blog to myself and then I went through HKCE . I went to another school for F.6. I had made many good friends which I'm so thankful about. Then it came AL which was completely a disaster for me . I didn't have the best results and my parents were angry and disappointed with me . It seemed like the end of the world for me .
       
           I was under so much pressure. My parents kept nagging me everyday and made me feel so worthless .They thought everything was ruined, my future , their future..........  I couldn't sleep at night sometimes and I felt  restless during the day. I had missed my period for three months and experienced some hair loss which the amount was more than normally . I almost thought that I would developed  a depression.

 Thank God IT DID NOT HAPPEN.

          I went thorough all the applications and  interviews for nursing school. It was hard cause there were a few times I thought I almost got admitted into ST. Teresa nursing school or HKSH nursing school but they didn't pick me at last. It was a torture waiting and hoping that they would call back for the next interview or tell me I'm in.

         After all that struggle I finally was admitted to HKBH nursing school. It literally saved my life!!! I couldn't imagine how miserable my life would be if i wasn't accepted into any of the nursing schools or nursing degree in OUHK. My parents could have killed me or I would either way. Not exaggerating ,it really was a low point for me.

           But I'm glad I'm still alive  I'm breathing ha ha. My dad didn't kill me.(  Which is what the result would most probably be if that happened)

           It was going quite well in term 1 even if i wasn't feel so certain about the position I was in and I wasn't so sure if I really wanted to be a nurse or I am being in this position just because I had no choice. I could have got the job if I attended the interview offered by the immigration department but if  I chose to be an immigration assistance then my life would totally be a different story and I would lost the chance to be a professional. It was a huge struggle! But I believe my parents had picked the right choice for me and I got very interested into nursing gradually when I'm at school. Everything seems going so well .They really had put me in the best place I can be.

           I made it to term 2. We lost 3 classmates cause they couldn't make it through exams . It was sad but that was reality. I really hope that they can find a way, a new job , a new life which will make them happy and keep going on to their dreams. Term 2 wasn't going quit well for me cause someone had been gossiping on my back ever since term 1 practicum and I legitimately had no idea about. It was so weired when I went back for school after term 1 practicum. My friends were avoiding me and other classmates looked at me in a really creepy way which made me feel so uncomfortable. I felt so unwelcome but at the same time I had no idea what the fuck was happening.

         Finally I found out what that the gossip was about (not totally but partly). I was furious and I felt so helpless. I couldn't not understand why my classmates were like that. Especially the group of people that I used to hang out with. I asked myself a million times what is wrong that I had done or said. I couldn't think of any and I even tried to ask them and apologized even if I didn't do anything wrong. They were so cold, turned their back on me and didn't even want to talk about that or gave me a fucking "explanation" . It was lame . I sucked it up and I thought survived cause this wasn't the first time I came across bullying and I wouldn't shed a tear.

        Moreover, not all of my classmates are like that. Some are still kind and willing to talk to me or show concerns. What I don't understand is that why people never grow up. We are actually studying a higher diploma programme but I feel like I went back to primary school. They can make up all that crap and talk shit about me for no reason. They exaggerate what they think and feel and put all the responsibility on a person that may not necessarily be related to that incident which to me is absolutely hilarious.

        Term 3 is already half way gone. I have more classmates to talk to now as time passes by I think they can tell by their own judgement that I'm not the person that they thought i was from those bitches. I mean BITCHES you know who you are , let's don't fake it. But still the " bad " impression is still there . I try to look strong and make myself not to care about it but you can't hide your feelings. I cannot lie to myself and tell myself to not to feel deprived, lonely or isolated when people is exploiting me and making me feel bad.

        I don't quite like to stay at school. I go home right away after school or leave whenever I can go . I feel so lonely surrounding by the wrong people who take me wrongly, not to mention doing group projects. Those had given me hard times to "fit in" , you know to "shape myself"  ,and enough embarrassment. I hate it when we need to divide into groups. I don't feel like I belong and I sometimes feel unwanted. I don't know how long will this cold war last . The feeling of unwanted haunts me like everyday when I'm at school. It always comes into my mind and occupies me .

        I know that I deserve better friends!!! So I always remember those good friends that I had back in secondary school, in CAS and my old colleagues etc . They make me feel that I'm worth it and they make me a better person.

        I never ever done any bad to any person or talk about them on their back. I really have nothing to feel bad about , to apologize or to feel sorry about. I have no reason to act stupid or cute or whatsoever to please any person who cannot see my inner beauty and my sincere just beacuse they are jealous or whatsoever. It is not my loss not to have them as my friends .It is something to be glad about not having bad people and bad influence to my life and  be able to miss them.

      Once again I have nth to feel sorry about. I live my life in my own way and I don't need you to judge me. I can think for myself and I have my values and always keep high moral grounds. So FUCK OFF bitches!!